By 1998, Sundown Gower Studios had set the stage for practically a century of TV and movie historical past: from Mr. Smith Goes to Washington to Humorous Woman; Bewitched and Saved by the Bell to The Golden Women. That 12 months the storied lot additionally performed host to Moesha, the one and solely hit sitcom on the fledgling—and rapidly tanking—community UPN, which had simply begun filming its fourth season. The present’s titular essential character was performed with attraction and vulnerability by a 19-year-old Brandy Norwood, who, by season 4, had develop into as synonymous with Moesha the character as she was with the music she made together with her personal title. The season’s premiere episode even celebrated the conflation: Moesha, performed by Brandy, lastly meets her idol, Brandy, additionally performed by Brandy. Cute, proper?
The impact was something however for the lady on the middle. As an alternative, it was a rupture. “After years of residing in [Moesha’s] world,” Brandy writes in her new memoir, Phases, “one thing inside me snapped like an overstretched rubber band.” She did the unthinkable: She walked out of Gower with out telling a soul. “The great lady in me wouldn’t have dared. However right now, she was lifeless.” Brandy wasn’t being dramatic. Her subsequent breakdown, exacerbated by an consuming dysfunction and bodily exhaustion, marked the top of her years as America’s sweetheart—and one among its most worthwhile stars. “I had develop into a model—a product to be packaged and offered,” she remembered. “And the strain to keep up that picture—that flawless, bubbly, healthful picture—was suffocating me from the within out.”
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She’d been saying sure for the whole lot of her grownup life. Sure to season after season of Moesha. Sure to recording, at age 15 and at breakneck velocity, her first of two multiplatinum albums, with gargantuan world excursions wedged in between. And most of all, sure to being the primary: one of many first Black celebrities to have her personal Barbie doll. The primary Black singer to land a Cowl Woman marketing campaign. The primary Black princess, when she starred as Cinderella alongside her idol Whitney Houston, one other generationally proficient Black girl compelled into unimaginable perfection and later punished brutally after cracking underneath it.
The largest realization Brandy got here to after her breakdown was excruciating to confess: She had no concept who the hell she was as an individual. She was, in her thoughts, “a query mark in designer garments.” Beginning over was first unimaginable, then daunting, after which slowly manifested by a mixture of remedy and extra religious cures (transient flirtations with Scientology and the Nation of Islam didn’t take maintain). Freedom grew to become one thing actual—freedom from expectations, sure, however extra thrillingly, the liberty to resolve who this new, difficult Brandy Norwood was as a artistic drive. On her technique to determining who she was as an individual, she lastly realized how she needed to sound.
This was the place Brandy discovered herself when she started work on what would develop into her masterpiece, Full Moon, an album that, within the years since its launch in 2002, has been acknowledged as the inspiration for modern R&B, and which paved the way in which for a litany of singers trying to imitate its vocal method, from Ariana Grande and Kehlani to Solange and Ty Dolla $ign. However earlier than Brandy grew to become revered because the Vocal Bible, all she’d needed was to sound like Michael Jackson. Not precisely like him, however to know and replicate the magic he conjured when he stacked his voice for his background vocals and stadium-filling choruses.
